Control freak...

...I am one, have you noticed?  I think it helps me feel that I have power over my life here.  I measure what I eat, how long I sleep, how often I socialise, the hours I spend studying, the amount of bible study I do, and my leisure time.  And I like it.  I tell myself my boundaries are all in perfect order and that's what makes me happy.  Jbird is a more happy go-lucky, carefree kind of person, and we often come into conflict when he wants to throw something unexpected into the mix.  I'm a pretty powerful opponent and I often/sometimes get my way. 

This passed weekend I let myself loose and somehow I felt normal, less stressed out.  I let myself enjoy spending time with some different people, and found myself relating to them on lots of levels.  Oh, and there were some stellar cooking-in-the-kitchen moments.  Life didn't feel like a struggle, in fact it was easy.  I didn't feel far from home, instead, I felt at home.  The problem was that I wanted to live every minute of it so I over did it.  Three late nights followed by early mornings, and I have to admit that I succumbed to an afternoon rest yesterday afternoon.

Oh, the glory of it.  And the guilt I felt on waking.